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Vyacheslav Rybakov. Artist
Азбеъйча Оьючима. Сядмтлуи
Translated by Ilya Avroutine (firstname.lastname@example.org)
Copyright © Vyacheslav Rybakov
Copyright © Translation Ilia Avroutine. 1997
The forest was endless.
The dense layer of murk tightly yet transparently wrapped
itself around his body. Somebody's eyes, like mulberry flashes.
A beast? Or a spirit? He would freeze and hold his breath.
Twice the Artist walked through clearings in the forest.
The stars were glimmering high in the peaceful dark-blue sky,
high above the dangers of the forest. But then again he had to
dive under the low network of branches, into the slightly sweet
mass. The forest screamed and growled, it breathed out its foul
breath. From time to time -- creeping steps. A beast? Or a
The Artist hoped to hear the voice of a Ku-wu bird, the
bird of his ancestors. This would mean he was on the right
track. But the forest screamed with other voices. The Artist
was exhausted, his crippled leg bothered him more and more. He
was licking his lips, glued together by dryness, but his tongue
was just as dry. In the middle of the next clearing he
stopped and threw back his bruised head. Above him, framed by
the dark shadows of tree branches, shimmered a cloud of stars,
rolling across the dizzyingly high dark blue vault. The stars
always helped the Artist. Just one look at them and even the
most complicated pictures turned out well. Why don't other
people like looking at the stars?
Then he sank to the moist ground with a muffled moan and
called out to the Ku-wu. Help!
Just a sign. He did not need anything else, just a sign.
Leave the rest to him. He will be tireless like the wind, he
will walk forever not feeling any pain. If he was on the right
track, the misery was not in vain.
But there was no sign...
He was finished with the picture of a Bear and was ready
to puncture it with thin sticks of spears in all the usual
places, in preparation for the ritual.
The tribe was growing and had needed a bigger cave. But
the only cave they had managed to find was occupied by a huge
Bear. They had to kill it but did not know how. The tribe had
not had to face such a problem for a long time. Only the very
oldest men in the tribe knew how to kill the Bear, but every
one of them had a different story.
A shadow fell on the wall and the Artist heard a familiar
breathing behind him. He turned around. The Chief looked at the
drawing for a while and then said:
"Good." Then he waited and added, "That's enough."
"What's enough?" The Artist was surprised.
"You've drawn enough."
"I still have to do the spears."
"No, you don't have to do the spears."
"No. We 're not going to dance around the drawing."
The Artist lowered his hands that were covered in paint.
"We're not going to attack the Bear?"
The Chief looked elsewhere.
"We'll attack the Bear," he said. "But from now on, we
won't dance around the drawing. You won't draw any spears. You
won't draw anything!"
The Artist rose slowly and his Assistant, who had been
busily stirring the clay, also rose.
"How can we not draw the spears?" asked the Artist,
apparently lost. "And how can we not draw anything?"
"We decided that you go hunting just like everybody else
now," said the Chief, and his voice suddenly grew very firm.
"And your Assistant, too. No need to draw. You two men are
wasting your time on something that any old woman could do.
He was silent for a while.
"No need to draw. We'll erase all that," and he broadly
swept his hand over the entire wall where the Artist had been
The Artist looked at the Chief, and then turned to his
drawings. Every kind of animal that people have ever seen was
there, and people too. There was a small piece of eternal sky
in every one of them, and the stars sparkled in every line. The
Artist could not live without drawing.
"I will not let you," he said in a hoarse voice and turned
to the Chief again. "Let it stay!"
To give his words more weight he bared his teeth and
hissed, adopting an aggressive pose. Although he knew perfectly
well, if they decided to erase it, they would. But why?
"We've decided," said the Chief and looked right into the
Artist's eyes. "They're not needed and only make it worse."
"Make what worse, for whom?" asked the Artist.
The Chief suddenly clenched his fists, each was the size
of the Artist's head.
The Artist tried not to look at them.
"What do they make worse?" he desperately asked again, as
his Assistant also clenched his fists. The Chief angrily
glanced at the Assistant and slowly lowered himself on the
ground and criss-crossed his powerful legs which were bulging
"You Who Draw People and Beasts, sit down," he said and
pounded the ground. "You want to talk, so we'll talk. And You
Who Stir the Clay, sit down too. Only not here, but over there.
I don't want you to hear anything."
"Why can't he hear what you're saying?" asked the Artist.
"He stirs the clay for me. I order him to stay here."
"You can't order him to stay here," countered the Chief. "
I want to speak so he won't hear."
"I want him to hear everything that I hear!" the Artist
stubbornly said, but the Chief clanked his teeth and loudly hit
himself on his hairy chest.
The Assistant moved away and the Chief turned to the
"You draw the spears," he said. "Everybody dances and the
elders ask the spirit for luck. And then the real spears miss."
"So we need to draw more spears," the Artist bursted out,
but the Chief interrupted him.
"You are drawing, and we are hunting. You sit in a cave
and eat what we bring, while we get wounded and die. And your
Assistant sits with you and stirs the clay for you. I'm not
saying it's your fault. I'm not saying we need to kill you. But
the tribe is loosing faith. Before they used to think: 'Let's
draw the victory and we'll have it.' But now we see, drawing
doesn't help! Drawing only makes it worse, because you don't
hunt with us. People are uneasy about that."
The Artist was dumbfounded.
After a long while he said "I'll draw".
"You will not draw," said the Chief with a sigh. "You'll
"I draw well," said the Artist, nervously interlocking his
thin fingers. "The elders don't ask hard enough."
The Chief stood up, and the Assistant seeing this, stood
up too, although he did not hear what the Chief had said.
"People think that too," said the Chief. "They think: 'He
draws well and everybody can see that. Nobody can tell how hard
the elders ask, so they must not be asking hard enough.' This
is the worst kind of idea people can possibly have."
"I'll go hunting, and then I'll draw. Don't tell them to
erase," asked the Artist and got up.
The Chief sighed again and wrinkled his forehead,
After a while, he said, "Fine, I will let you draw the
Bear and the spears. Draw the spears as well as you can. The
elders will not ask. And we will not attack the Bear. You and
your Assistant will draw well. And then you'll go and kill it
well! And if you don't kill it, then you drew poorly, so there
will be no sense in drawing anymore."
"Just the two of us?"
"Yes," confirmed the Chief. "So draw well."
The Assistant was dead, the Ku-wu bird was silent, and the
Artist could not walk anymore.
And the Bear was not hurt. And they will erase the
This idea shook the Artist. He started shifting around in
the dirt, trying to get up. If only somebody would give him a
hand... But nobody did. Grabbing the air, the Artist was trying
to get up, clenching his teeth so as not to cry out.
He could not cry, the forest always listens out for the
cry. That is where the easy prey is. The cry for help is always
answered by the killer.
He had to stand up. He had to reach his kind. They will
help him, they are also humans... humans... if the Chief
permits it... if elders permit it... then they will...
He stood up and trudged on.
He was lying on the ground, his breath short and raspy,
his head thrown back. An old woman squatted next to him and was
washing his wounds with herb water. She was murmuring something
completely unintelligible and touching his wounds with her keen
fingertips. The skin was slashed open and slippery meat came
out through the cuts. The Chief towered over them like a rock
and his face was grim.
"We didn't kill the Bear," sighed the Artist. "There
should've been more of us."
"In the old days one man could kill a Bear."
"He knew the way."
"But you knew how to draw!" yelled the Chief, pretending
to be surprised. "Why would you need to know how to kill?"
The Artist did not answer. The Chief waited and then said:
"You're only good for gathering roots now."
This was a humiliation.
It was not his fault that they had sent him.
It was not his fault that he had become a cripple.
It was not his fault that for the rest of his life he
would be doing woman's work and looking at empty walls!
"I can't gather roots because I can't walk," he said,
barely able to open his swollen lips. "I'll draw."
The Chief bared his teeth.
"There's plenty of work inside the cave! You'll cut roots
and prepare animal skins. Somebody has to do the dirty work.
You are used to dirt, working with your paint and clay, so it
shouldn't be that hard for you!"
"I'll do the dirty work and then I'll draw," the Artist
The Chief's muscles swelled, he loudly hissed and started
hitting his chest with both hands. He frightened the old woman.
She jumped to one side and tripped over the Artist's wound with
her hard, dry knee. The pain tore through him as if he was hit
by the great fire from the sky. The Artist cried out as he
jerkily shifted his position on the stinking animal skin.
The Chief grew calm again. He sighed and then bent over
and sympathetically smoothed out the skin under the Artist.
"It's important to erase," said the Chief.
The Artist closed his eyes.
He helped to cut roots, gut fish, clean animal skins. They
laughed at him. Sometimes he would emerge from the cave and sit
quietly in the opening. He would inhale the fresh air and look
at the vast forest. He had trouble walking, but as he sat
there, the sun licked his crooked frame clean with its hot
tongue. The Artist would look through his half-closed eyes and
In the rare moments when he was left in the cave with the
children and half-blind old women, he would walk up to his
wall. The drawings were long erased, but the Artist touched the
wall with the palms of his hands, on which dry earth was
permanently implanted. He caressed the cold stone with his
rough fingers, creating imaginary drawings. Suddenly, just like
in the old days, he would see that he drew this line just right
and the other one, too. If they had been visible to all, a
deer's surprised moist eye would be looking at him from the
Meanwhile, the elders tried to remember how to get rid of
the Bear. Every one of them tried to have their say and they
would all claim the others were too young to really remember,
and so the Chief did not dare to risk another attack.
Once the Artist was able to get out of the cave with the
help of a strong stick, he walked to the place where his
Assistant used to get clay.
It took him a while to get there. He transported as much
as he could carry and trudged back, taking frequent breaks. He
would sit down, stretch his crippled leg, and rest his chin on
a knotted crutch.
He saw a rock not far from the cave and sat near it. He
started stirring the clay, clumsily but with as much love and
care as he could gather. He felt it gradually turning into
Then he lay down, exhausted, as he nestled the back of his
head in soft grass. The sky was clear. The Artist was thinking
about the fact that he had not seen stars for so long. With
effort he sat down again and started drawing.
And again he saw that enormous gray hulk silently falling
from above. The One Who Stirred the Clay cried out and only
then the Bear growled, sensing blood. The thin legs sticking
out from under the beast's mass jerked as they were dragged
around. The Bear's nose turned crimson. The Artist stepped
back, clumsily sticking his spear in front of him. Then he
screamed with horror. Everything happened so suddenly and
quickly. The One Who Stirred had just spoken with him and was
trying to calm him down. He moved the Artist away with his
strong elbow and advanced...
The Bear lifted up its head and growled again. The Artist
stepped further back and tripped, falling flat onto the ground,
while trying to hold on to his spear. Then the Bear attacked.
The Artist threw the spear and hit the Bear, but the beast only
growled louder. The Artist sprang off the ground, the Bear
leaped, the Artist jumped, too, and rolled down the slope, as
the huge avalanche of stones and rubble followed him with boom
and thunder, raising clouds of dust...
He was drawing. He was telling the story, crying, begging,
'Do not laugh! There's nothing funny about what happened!'
He finished one drawing, then another one, then a third, a
fourth, trying to copy it all from memory just as he had seen
it. He did not spare the paint. He was trembling. He wished,
just for a moment, that everybody would feel as much pain and
grief as he was feeling, so they would understand.
People stopped laughing at him. He drew himself, crippled,
crooked like a dry blade of grass, lying flat on the animal
skin, and the empty wall next to him.
He returned to the cave late at night when everybody was
asleep. He was exhausted and his eyelids were very heavy. Sweet
fatigue pacified and relaxed him. He fell asleep immediately.
That night he did not see his nightmares about the Chief and
The Chief came to see him shortly past noon. His nostrils
were swollen with anger and his upper lip was twitching, baring
"Did you draw?" he asked abruptly.
The Artist put away the fish he was gutting.
"Yes, I did," he answered. "I Who Draw People and Beasts."
"Why did you draw? I told you not to."
"I like to draw. I decided to draw on my own even though
you told me not to, because I like to do it."
The Chief was trying to restrain himself.
"And you drew it like this?" he asked, hiding his hands
behind his back. "What you drew was the most dangerous thing!"
"I drew what I saw. I drew what I thought."
"You drew how the Bear was eating you."
"Some people have already seen it and more will see it
still. We'll erase it, but even more people will see it before
we erase. They will never dare to attack the Bear. It's
"Yes," said the Artist. "It's frightening."
"That's why you drew it?"
"I just could not help drawing."
The Chief thought for a while, his forehead wrinkled.
"You've terrified the whole tribe," he said.
"I didn't think about that."
"What did you think about, then?"
The Artist was slow to respond.
"I thought about myself. When I draw, I always think about
myself and about the things I want. Things I like. I thought
about the pain I had. I thought about the One Who Stirred the
The Chief quickly glanced around, checked if anyone was
listening, and then asked abruptly:
"Then why does the Bear look so much like me?"
The Artist did not answer. He did not know.
"I know," said the Chief. "You wanted to do me wrong."
"No," said the Artist hopelessly, "I don't like to do
wrong to people. I like to do good things to people."
"Then you'll go and erase," said the Chief. "And then
you'll draw it all differently, because the way you drew, it's
too frightening. Your Bear is frightening."
"It's not my Bear'. It is the Bear! That's how it was."
"You will draw a different one then. You will draw a
really tiny Bear and the biggest hunters with the biggest
spears. Nobody will be afraid. I'll take my hunters myself to
see your pictures. And then I'll send them to kill the Bear."
"No," said the Artist. "The Bear wasn't like that. I can't
draw a different Bear, only the one that was there."
"Then you'll be banished," said the Chief, "And you'll die
alone in the forest."
The Artist suddenly felt pain in his barely healed wounds.
He did not say anything.
"When everybody will become brave from seeing the small
Bear they'll go and kill it and we'll have a big cave."
"When they see the real big Bear, they'll be frightened
even more because they thought it was a small Bear!"
"So what?" answered the Chief calmly. "When the Bear
attacks they'll have to fight because it will pounce right on
"It'll kill many!"
"Yes, but we'll have a bigger cave."
"When many die, why a bigger cave?"
The Chief thought that over.
"A bigger cave's always good," he said. "We have to kill
the Bear because we already said we'd kill it. We can't say now
that we don't have to."
The Artist had nothing to say to that. He lowered his
"I'll let you draw on the wall of the new cave and I'll
give you another Assistant," said the Chief softly. "Go."
The Artist got up and headed for the outside. The Chief
went with him, supporting the Artist with his powerful arms.
His support was so secure that for a moment the Artist thought
he was strong again as if he had never been wounded. It was so
easy to walk as long as the Chief supported him. But the Chief
let go just before they got out and the Artist had to walk the
rest of the way on his own.
Two young hunters stood near his rock. They were leaning
on their spears and were quietly talking. The Artist stopped in
the bushes behind their broad, brown backs and rested on his
"Hey, look," one of the hunters was saying to the other
one. "That's where the Bear actually hid."
"Yes," the second hunter answered. "Look how it leapt. His
front legs were spread out but his belly was vulnerable. If you
jump at him and aims the spear up, as it leaps at you, you can
sink your spear in its belly."
"But those guys didn't know that. And look over there. You
need to outflank the Bear, attack from both sides!"
"Yes, remember our trick? We could definitely use it
"Too bad they didn't know our trick."
"Too bad they didn't know how the Bear leaps."
"Too bad they didn't know where it hides."
An uneasy silence followed as they looked at the rock.
"But we know now, don't we?" said one. The other one
sighed with relief and rolled his spear from his left hand into
"Yes," he said, "We know now."
They spoke no more. Tightly holding their spears they
looked into each other's eyes one more time and left, like
shadows, slipping through the brush in complete silence.
The Artist sank to the ground. He felt so weak. He was so
sorry he could not go with those two. And if he could not go,
there was no point in moving at all. He only had to wait.
Fine mist hung in the air, teasing his nostrils and making
the spicy smells of the forest even stronger. The sky fogged up
and a quiet rain rustled through the leaves. As it started to
rain, the picture began to shrink and smear, until a few
moments later not even a trace of it remained on the dark,
rough side of the rock. But the Artist did not even notice, as
he looked in the direction where these two had gone. Those who
would not cry and who are strong, unlike him. The ones who just
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